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This Is For My Fallen The One I Loved, My Best Freind, Fello Rider And Loveing Son, Caleb Auston Hubbell. My Son Passed Away On Jan 28,2005 He Was Six. He Had A Liver Transplant At Age 7 Mons And Was Diegnosed With Cd4+t-cell Limphoma In June Of 04 He Was A Strong And Loving Boy With A Younger Brother . THIS IS HIS BIKE HE GOT FROM THE MAKE A WISH FOUNDATION ALONG WITH ALOT OF HOT WHEELS AND A NEW HUMMER. I Miss Him So Much And I Just Wish That Life Was Not So Hard! Caleb Could Not Even Ride A Bike Yet But He Masterd His Little Honda And I Know He Love It As Much As I Loved Him So To All Of Those People Who Have Lost , I Pray For You And Your Family And I Wish The World The Best. God If You Are Listining Tell My Sone I Love Him And I Will Bring Some Toys When I Can, AND JOSHUA SAID HI!

My Families Prayers are with you.

Prayers with you man sorry to hear bout that If you need anything lets a rider know :bowdown:

Hello I Have Read Some Of The Other Posts About Loosing Loved Ones And I Am Sorry For The Pain That We Have All Gone Threw And I Wish That Things Could Be Better For Everyone. My Loss Is One I Will Never Forget, Loosing A Son I Could Not Think Of Anything Worse, I Thank You All For The Kind Thoughts. After Reading Some Of These Storys I Got To Thinking About Some Of Calebs Things. You Know In The Bible How The Time Frame Is Diff? I Am Not For Sure Exactly But You Know How A Yr To God Is Like 7 Yrs To Us! Or Something Like That. Any How Caleb Had Passed The Day After His Transplant Date. He Got His Liver On Jan 27 Of 99 And Passed Away On Jan 28 Of 05. It Like God Gave Me One Day To Spend With My Son ! I Do Not Know How To Explain It All But I Miss Him More Than Ever. To Day Is Not A Good Day, Its Been One Month To The Day And I Am Afrid It Is Going To Get Harder. It Seams Like I Do Not Know What To Do With My Time. And Think That I Am Ignoring My Other Son Because He Reminds Me Of Things. Josh Has Changed Too See He Will Not Play With Hotwheels Or Anything Becouse Caleb Is Not Around. He Is Lonly And Most Of The Time He Just Sits In His Room And Play V-games. So We Put Him In Tae-Kwon-Do. I Feal Like I Am Loosing Caleb Every Day I Can Not Remember His Smell Or How It Felt To Run My Hand Over His Fuzzy Head , I Miss His Smile And How He Use To Laph All I Have Is Pic And They Do Not Do It For Me I Do Not Want To Feal The Way I Feal And I Can Not Do Anything To Stop It. I Do Not Talk To People To Much About This Couse When I Try To Talk I Just Break Down So I Just Bottle It All Up Inside. Some Times It Just Feals Easear Any How I Will Write More Latter! Thanks Chip

Damn man, sorry to hear about this. I can't imagine losing a family member. Hang in there bud, everything does get better. You need anyone to talk to, msg me. You and your fam are in my prayers....

I can not imagine how it would be to lose a son. I will pray for you and your family. It is not going to be easy for you. I lost one of my best friends two years ago and I still think of him all the time. Try not to keep it bottled up. If you do you might take it out on those who are closest to you. There are so many things I could say but you have heard them all by now. The only thing I can tell you is let him be your guide to live a good life so you can be reunited with him. If you need anything pm me.

My prayers are with you man and your family. It is not good to keep it bottled up, it is very hard to talk about but talking about it will eventually help. Just remmeber that God always has a plan and even though you dont know what it is right now just know that you someday will. He is heaven with God now and doesn't have to suffer through his sickness anymore. The only way to get through anything like this is with God. Just remember that if you cant talk about it to other people you can talk to God, he is always listening and never leaves your side. You can make it through this and you will, just remember that all things are possible with God. I f you need to talk just pm me dude. I will keep you and your family in my prayers.

AGAIN THANK YOU ALL FOR THE KIND WORDS AND YES I KNOW IT HELPS TO TALK BUT THAT IS JUST NOT ME I AM THE TIPE THAT WOULD KINDA ACT LIKE NOTHING HAPPEN YOU KNOW. LIKE YOU GET IN TO A FIGHT WITH YOUR GIRL AND THE NEXT DAY THAT IT ITS OVER LIKE NOTHING HAPPEN, BUT REALY I FEAL IT INSIDE . CALEB WAS MY LIFE MY FIRST BOY, AND SECOND CHILD TO LOOSE. I DONT KNOW I JUST FEAL EMPTY INSIDE AND IT COMEING UP ON TWO MONTHS. IT GETS HARDER AND HARDER , WE WENT THREW SOME OF HIS THINGS LAST NIGHT AND I REALY DIDNT WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH IT! SEE I AM KEEPING SOME THINGS , HIS LEATHER JACKET, A TONE OF HIS HOT WHEELS I AM GOING TO PUT IN A DISPLAY IN MY SHOP! AND HIS LITTLE HONDA RACER. SOME OTHER THINGS TOO. IT S GETS EASYER AT TIMES , YOU KNOW YOU STAY SO BUISSY AND YOU JUST KINDA GO ON BUT AS SOON AS I GET HOME I SEE HIM EVERY WHER AND I JUST WANT HIM BACK. I KNOW HE IS IN A BETTER PLACE AND THAT HE HAS NO PAIN NOW BUT IF HE COULD JUST SEND A POST CARD OR MAKE A CALL SOME TIME ! LOL YOU KNOW HOW THESE KIDS GET! HE WAS GOOD KID AND HE WILL BE MISSED. TO MAKE THINGS WORSE THE BOYS MOTHER IS COMEING DOW FROM NY AND STAYING FOR 2 WEEKS. WE ARE GOING TO HAVE SO MANY PROBLEMS I CAN SEE IT NOW . ANY HOW THANKS FOR LETTING ME CHICKEN PEC IN YOUR EAR FOR A BIT :damn: THANKS CHIP

Hey Chip, Hang in there man. It's so hard to lose a loved one. It does help to talk, or type about it. Just keep your heart and mind open. It helps heal the wounds a bit. Also, keeping your heart and mind open will help you recognize the post cards he will be sending. Trust me, they will come. He just needs to settle into his new home man. Stay strong for him. And we will stay strong for you!!

Man I am speechless. As I was reading through your posts, I just keep picturing my self in your shoes, having 3 kids of my own. I wouldn't know what to do if something like that would happen to my kids. Stay strong and hang in there.

Thats what were here for, anytimeyou need to talk we're here for you. Just remember taht he never left you, he is still there. He is lookin down on you from heaven and wantin and needin you to be sttrong for him and his brother. It might not seem like it now but in time all wounds will heal, meaning that it will get easier to deal with. But he will never be forgotten. You guys are still in our prayers. Keep strong man and when you need to talk ujust hit us up man, we're here for you.

Damn...Thats tough man. I have a 1 y/o named Caleb, and I just can't imagine...My heart goes out to you, stay strong. In the wake of such a loss, we're haunted by things we don't - and may never - understand. Yet the solace we seek may not come from answers. So we look for comfort in the belief of love's everlasting connection. May that love lift you, hold you close, and give you peace. There are special people in our lives who never leave us, even when they're gone.

I really cant say enough man. Im so sorry that you have to go through this pain. I dont have kids of my own, but I regularly think about the possibilities of loosing loved ones that are close. Just please know that it will get better, And you will see your son again. Just dont loose faith! God be with you and your family.

We Went To The Cemitary Yesterday For Easter And All That Took Him Some Things, Hot Wheels And All That And It Was Not To Bad I Realy Did Not Want To Stay To Log. That Was The First Time We Have Gone Scence The Service! I Took The Bike I Think He Would Have Like To See Me Ride You Know . Any How I Am Missing Him More And More But Cant Do Any Thing About It So Any How Thanks You All!

sorry about your loss...and a (very modest Peace)

hey sorry to here my prayers are with you

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Im sure she is resting in peace. :) All that you can do, is to keep her memory alive with pictures and talk about the good times you've had. As a women with children, I would never want my childern or my husban to be in pain, over my passing. (im sure would want them thing, as would her son.) Memories are forever.... RIP

WELL, yesterday was bad day! i do not know why but i was just in a mood, angre, upset, pist off. i dont know but i was snapping at everyone, i was yelling at my wife and my kid. we went to get groceraies and we could not figure out what to get so i got pissed off, the price was over 110 so i got pisted off. then we get home and start unloading and i went to put the meat in the deep freez and i had cups and a tent and all kinds of shit on the top well that pist me off, all that shit went flying drings spilled everyplace tent, air mat all went flying. then i started to clean up my shop and well i could not figure out wher to put every thing. i got pissed off. finaly i said fuck it i had a smoke and a dp and wached csi and went for a ride. i started to feal better but i was still in a mood . i do not know why i get this way it has not been this bad in a wile. i do not know what to do , i know something is wrong because as long as i have been away from my exwife i have had this strange fealing. Now that i have money and all i can not stop spending it , i buy cun stuf and i bout bouth of my bikes and i do not stop ther. I get the gun or what ever and then i start to buy more shit for it till i hame happy, new stock , scope, have the barrel parkerizied, everything that i can do you know . same with the bike bout it bought parts had it jetted twice, ex i like to buy things but its like i am buying things to compinsaite for the lack of somethig and i do not know what this has been going on for a wile even befor caleb got cancer and all that! i need to see a doctor but i just do not what to go ! i feel lost or something!?

that sux bro, I will for sure keep you in my prayers. I know how what your talking about, how sometimes you just get in bad moods. What I do when this happens is I try and take a timeout from everything and everyone. Ill then just sit down and pray. The only way to get thru this is with God, there is nothing to big for him too handle. You just need to sit down and pray and talk to God about your problems and just tell him everything cause talking about it does help. If you need anything man don't hesitate to ask, you can pm me if you need to talk bro. Thats what here for, where all one big family.

man, your first post tore a hole in my heart. deeply sorry.... i can't even think of anything else to type. i will never forget that picture

ok well its about that time and we are all getting to gether for my sons birth day , june 30 i guess you can call it a family reunion or somthing. the days are getting easer but i still miss him and i am realy astonished at what all caleb has gone threw and that he realy had no ill affects from any of the medication. i truely wish that we never had to deal with any of this but its like you here, it makes you stronger and it defines who you are. any life altering situation will humble most people, i just wish it could have been diff you know, any how caleb would have been 7 this june 30 and i know we would have had some fun so i will remember him each morning and love him the hole day threw from now till the end of my time. please if you have kids love them and let them be just what they are kids. the time you spend with them is more important that anyone or anything in the world, for i do wish now that i had spent more time with caleb but you know what now its to late and i beat myself up everyday for not being thier more than i was .

my prayers are with you and your family. My deepest sympathy goes to you. I lost my best friend in OCtober of 02 and that was really hard on me..I can only imagine what it is like to lose a son...Sorry to hear about your loss...again my prayers are with you.

I am so sorry for your loss. My wife has survived 5, count them 5 cancers now startin with lymphoma 19 years ago. Latest was breast cancer last year. I am so greatful. It sounds like he was an amazing boy. Please take the time to grieve however long that takes. I know you'll never be "over it", but it sounds like you recieved the gift of an amazing son, even if it was for such a short time. My prayers are with you and your family today. Thank you for reminding me of what is truely important. It's so easy to loose perspective of that, getting caught up in the distractions of daily life. Vej

well one more of my friends has passed away today, mandy owens. she had some cosmetic surger done on monday and i guess she had some complications! any how please wemon need to leave well enogh alone. my life just keeps getting better and better

R I P little man, Your family is in my prayers

man, your first post tore a hole in my heart. deeply sorry.... i can't even think of anything else to type. i will never forget that picture Im with this guy man, My prayers go out to you and your family.

My yours day be easied by Gods hand.

I was at work reading your posts from the beginning and I started crying. I am very sorry for the loss of your son. There are simply no words to describe the feeling you get in your stomach when you lose a son. My wife has been pregnant 7 times. We lost them all, 4 of them at 20 weeks so we had to endure the delivery. I know this isn't the same. I never thought in my wildest nightmares that I would ever bury a child of mine before me. I have put 4 in the ground. There isn't a day that goes by I don't miss all of them. My oldest would be 11. My wife and I still wanted kids and ended up adopting 2 boys. It is the ones we lost that help us to appreciate the ones that are still here more each day. I don't know that it ever gets easier, you just need time. Try not to beat yourself up during those bad days. I have some of those days where everything that doesn't go the way I want makes me so furious I could explode. But I have to take myself away from everyone and everything and have a moment to myself. I try to find a picture of one of my loved ones and it brings me back to reality. But if you ever need anything, don't be afraid to shout at me. We all need a shoulder to lean on at times. Don't be afraid to use one.

I cant imagine how you feel or how you find your stregth to live in this world knowing that your son has passed. My wife and I just had a baby this summer and I cant even imagine him being away from me for a while. To tell you the truth, You just might be the HERO. Prayers from my family to yours.

well i have not been on in a while i have been working alot and do not have the net at home! any how thank you all and i still think of caleb every day for some reason or another you know just wishing he was still with us but to no avale he is not , and now my wife is pregnent and i do not know how to feal about that! we have wanted a child that is ours ( i was devorced) but i feal like its takeing away from what i had with caleb and i am some what excited but mostly confueds i realy do not know ! i just miss caleb! god bless everyone and and my prayer go out to L.A. :headshake

well i have not been on in a while i have been working alot and do not have the net at home! any how thank you all and i still think of caleb every day for some reason or another you know just wishing he was still with us but to no avale he is not , and now my wife is pregnent and i do not know how to feal about that! we have wanted a child that is ours ( i was devorced) but i feal like its takeing away from what i had with caleb and i am some what excited but mostly confueds i realy do not know ! i just miss caleb! god bless everyone and and my prayer go out to L.A. :headshake just wanted to say congratulations for the new baby on the way. You soon will have a new addition to the family who will be blessed to get to know & love Caleb through your memories & stories. i wish you the best in handling your current heartache while experiencing the joy of a new baby who will teach you it's ok to love & be happy even with the loss of Caleb. May God bless you & your family...

here is mine: http://katkrew.com/nuke/modules/coppermine/albums/userpics/10024/DSCN9270.JPG

congrats on the soon to be new edition to the family. sorry to hear about your lost. At least you always have the memories in your heart, and that is more special than anything, cause he will live with you forever. my prayers are with you and your family.

Unfortunately I can relate what you are going through to some point. My so was killed by a drunk driver at the young age of 4 and not a day goes by that I don't wish I could have been standing in the spot that he was that day. Be strong and rely on fellow riders to cheer you up on those days that seem unbearable. I miss you Ty.

wow my prayers are with you , i definatly cried reading about your son.

well its me again and things are still the same , i am happy and sad all at the same time i want the new baby but am still missing caleb and i do not know what i should be fealing, my wife wants me to be the best husband you know do this do that stop smoking rub my feet and well i am not at that point i feal like this hole thing is wrong and i just want caleb, i can not bring my self to do the things she wants and honestly i should and if things had been diff i would but they are not and i do not know what i am doing anymore i miss my son! thank you all for the kind words! i am just realy mixed up right now and hope that things getter better. i think it is the fear of have a child as well i am only 28 but so many things can go wrong and i am so scard of that i just do not what to deal with all of this again! thanks for letting be get this out a little at a time! and yes i sold my bike paid off calebs funeral cost, bout a 4 wheeler for hunting and bought some baby stuff so now i am bikeles! but will have one again one day i think by next yr, going back to court as well ex wife has not payed child suport, insurance ex past do some 3600 + dollers going to nale that ass! all the bulshit i had to deal with that crazy bitch! i wish she would move back to new york, i just hate that we all had to go threw all this shit, and that cheating bitch realy just didnt care at all! sorry any how see you all around!

maybe seek professional help? especially for your kids? maybe someone that focuses on loss or family issues? if it seems a little weak to you just remember that these people spend years in school and in the field to see how people successfully overcome problems in their lives.. a lot of times med ins. covers it if you label it as a certain type of "adjustment" therapy.. my prayers are with you and your family.

my thoughts and prayers are with you and your fam. during these tough holiday times. i know its already been said, but keep your head up and stay STRONG man.....life is one big TEST, thats all it is...sometimes its rough, other times its really easy and all peaches n' cream. its how we get thru the rough times that make us who we are..they either "make us or break us".....whatever you do, don't let it break you man..for your family's sake. i've seen friends crack under life's pressures and it isn't pretty.......have faith and stay level-headed...you'll be ok man. i dont have kids so i dont know that Paternal love one only has for their children, but i can only imagine a fraction of what its like to lose one............just know that your family and friends are always there for you no matter what. the more you confide i them, the less pressure you'll feel.

My heart and prayers go out to you and your family !!! God Bless !!!

WELL WE GOT SOME GOOD NEWS, ITS GOING TO BE A BOY, AND WE THE THE ALFA 1 TEST ON MY WIFE AND SHE IS NOT A CARYER SO FROM WHAT I UNDERSTAND THE BABY SHOULD NOT HAVE ALFA 1 :bounce , ANY HOW THINS ARE GOING AND GETTING BETTER AND YES I HAVE THOUGHT ABOUT COUNCELING BUT DO NOT HAVE THE MONEY, NOW THE EX WIFE IS TAKEING BE BACK TO COURT TO GET JOSHUA BACK, BUT THAT IS NOT GOING TO HAPPEN, AFTER I GOT THE BOYS SHE LEFT AND DID NOT PAY CHILD SUPORT FOR OVER AYEAR, THAT 12 COUNTS OF CONTEMPT OF COURT PUSH NO INSURANCE EX BLA BLA BLA , SO I DO NOT SEE IT HAPPENING BUT WE WILL SEE MONDAY, HAVE COURT! ANY HOW SOLD THE BIKE LIKE I SAID AND REALY WANT IT BACK BUT THE MONEY PAYED OFF CALEBS BARIAL COST EX ANY HOW HAVE A GOOD CHRISTMASS AND ALL WILL HIT BACK SOME TIME !

WELL COURT WAS TODAY AND WELL MY EX WIFE SPENT LIKE 3500 FOR HER LAWYER AND PAYED UP THE CHILD SUPORT OF 3200 AND HAS TO PAY ME BACK 1000 FOR MY LAWYERS FEES, AND REALY ALL SHE GOT TODAY WAS PHONE CALLS EVERY TUESDAY AND SUNDAY FROM 5-6 , SEE WAS FOUND IN CONTEMP AND GOT 30 DAYS OF JAIL BUT IT WAS PROBATED FOR 6 MONTHS IF SHE FUCKS UP SHE GOES TO JAIL YOU KNOW! ANY HOW WE HAVE TO DO A HOME STUDY AGAIN THAT WILL COST US 750 BUT IF WE WIN SHE MAY HAVE TO PAY US BACK! ANY HOW THE HOME STUDY IS GOING TO BE DONE BY THE SAME WOMAN THAT DID THE LAST ONE , SHE KNOWS THE HOLE CASE FROM THE BEGING SO THAT IS IN OUR FAVORE ANY HOW FOR A HOLE LOT OF MONEY SHE REALY GOT NOTHING ! BUT I AM HAPPEY, THANKS GUYES! :arsenal

sounds good man, keep us updated........looks like your ex is getting whats due:thumbup:

Hello ..I read your 1st post and man thats a tough one. Sorry about your son, he is beautiful..!! even though he was sick, he looks like he was full of joy in the picture. I got a kid myself ..Im also divorced and unable to see my kid everyday and it hurts real bad. my daughter is 2yrs old and I don't know how I would handle it if I ever lost her in this life. man I never knew what love was till she was born. But if its any confort.. you will one day see your son again. He's waiting for you man.. just hang in there.. live life for he is too and watching over you..Your son's memories will carry you through your life. Focus and love who's with you now and enjoy the moments cause life is short. Im older then you and I definatly respect you for what you have gone thru-. peace brotha!! God Bless You & Your Family. oh and congrats on the soon to be add on..!!!

Congrats on the new baby on the way. My wife just had our baby on December 5. She had been pregnant 7 prior times and this is the only pregnancy that lasted more than 21 weeks. He was born at 35 weeks. Still in the hospital but getting better and looking to possibly go home by the end of the weekend. Nothing will ever replace the memories you have of your son and that is a bond that can help you through life's tough times. Hang in there and keep us updated on the new child and your current situation.

well its been a long time but things are getting better, i still miss my son but i know that i always will, wer had our new boy conner back in may he is almost three months and he is awsom, any how the ex moved aback to new york and well we still have afew court dates but i think it is almost over and realy she didnt get shit , just made me spend some money to keep and protect what was already mine (joshua). any way i sold my gixxer but am looking to get another in the next yr or so. got a realy good job now alot better pay, but gotta go for now

Congrats on the new son..... Take it easy :bounce

sorry to hear about your loss... congrats on the new little guy!!! :thumbup: just keep your head up bro.. this is all you can do... as long as you rember and other people do, your son will still be alive.. it is when people forget when people really die... still sad none the less. just keep your head up... :)

1st off, Congrats on the new one, nothing like a newborn after a terrible loss. I lost a son in March of 06 so I know EXACTLY what you felt and are feeling. One of the worst things to EVER happen. Here is what I did to make sure no one forgets him and for the people that didnt know him to ask about him. Be strong and talk to him all the time. I persoally believe my son hears me. http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y148/tyson4lyfe/605808592_l.jpg

I cant imagine what you have gone through. Your story stopped me in my tracks. We often forget what is important in life until something happens. I dont have kids but my wife and I are trying. Good luck brother and btw, congrats on the new addition and keep your head up.

Rip

Alright thank you everyone , and i would like to get a tat of my son but i do not have the money but i will get ther. the days are getting better and better and the new baby is great, and to those who are trying good luck and injoy. kids are the best but some times its just hard. but god willing things alway work out for the best. thanks again for letting me chat.

i cant imagine the feeling but my prayres are with you and your family. I to belive that my lost loved ones can hear me when i talk to them. it sometimes brings me some sort of comfort. Good luck with the bright future ahead.

Congrats on the new baby on the way. My wife just had our baby on December 5. She had been pregnant 7 prior times and this is the only pregnancy that lasted more than 21 weeks. He was born at 35 weeks. Still in the hospital but getting better and looking to possibly go home by the end of the weekend. Nothing will ever replace the memories you have of your son and that is a bond that can help you through life's tough times. Hang in there and keep us updated on the new child and your current situation. CON GRATS ON THE NEW ONE, AND THANKS FOR ALL THE POSTS AND SUPORT YOU KNOW MY FIRST CHILD WAS STILL BORN AND WE HAD TO HAVE A SERVICE AND EVERYTHING BECOUSE OF HOW FAR ALONG SHE WAS, ITS NOT QUIT THE SAME BUT REALY CLOSE. ANY HOW LOVE THEM FOR ALL THEY ARE WORTH

1st off, Congrats on the new one, nothing like a newborn after a terrible loss. I lost a son in March of 06 so I know EXACTLY what you felt and are feeling. One of the worst things to EVER happen. Here is what I did to make sure no one forgets him and for the people that didnt know him to ask about him. Be strong and talk to him all the time. I persoally believe my son hears me. http://i4.photobucket.com/albums/y148/tyson4lyfe/605808592_l.jpg SEE THAT IS WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT, I LOVE THAT, THAT IS WHAT I WOULD LIKE TO DO GET MY SONS LIKNESS DONE BUT I DO NOT HAVE THE MONEY BUT AS SOON AS I DO ITS ON!

Well I Know This Is All Basicly For Me Just To Get Shit Of My Chest But Its Nice To See That Some People Do Care, Even If I Do Not Know Who They Are. All The Court Shit Is Not Done Yet But My Lowyer Told Me That Her Lowyer Is Quiting Her Case, She Moved To New York Wher She Is From And Realy Never Sees Joshua And I Guess That Her Lawyer Can Not Get In Contact With Her So He Quit , We Have A Court Date For That Now To, Any Way She Is Not Paying And No Insurance Ex! So She Has Lost And Doesnt Even Know It! Well Like The Title Says Time Flys, Conner Is Almost6 Months And Getting Biger And Biger And Realy Vocalizing, I Still Miss Caleb And I Do Not Visit To Much, Realy Do Not Know Why, Josh And I Have Been Doing More, Gun Range, 4 Wheeling Ex. But I Still Do Not Have All The Conections I Felt With Caleb. Now Adays Its Like I Am Not Fealing Loved. It May Be Just Me But Is Seams Like The Wife Just Bitches , From The Time I Get Home To The Time I Go To Work. It May Be Me But I Do Not Know. I Done Want To Get To Personal But I Am Sick Of Being The Agresor, You Know The One That Wants (it!!!!) All The Time, Mybe Its The New Baby Or Something But I Am The Only One That Trys To Show Affecton. Owell Caleb Would Be 8 Now And He Would Be Able To Hunt With Me, But Not Happening. Got A Good Job Still Have Now Money,live And Love Sucks, Job Sucks But Pays Realy Good, Insurance , 401 All That Bones Check So I Will Put Up With The Shit. I Realy Wish I Had My Bike Or The Money To Buy One, I Miss It, No One Talking In My Ear, No Radio Nothing Just Me And Going, Fuck It This Is Long Enogh. Good Luck In Love And Life. Chip

God bless and RIP, they say time is the best healer.....but glad to read that you're getting stronger and all I can say is, thats the way life is, every down has a up..just keep your head up :)

Thanks for keeping us posted on what's going on, Chip. I truly hope everything works out for you, and I have a very strong feeling that it will :thumbup: . I love the tattoo of your son, and I can't think of a better way to always keep him with you. Sounds like you're going through alot right now, and all I can say is keep your head up, remember who you are, and stare adversity square in the eye.

congrats on the new baby man, very sorry to hear about your first son.. keep ya head up and remember all the good things u have in your life!!

I don't know what it's like to lose a child. So to say I feel you would be a lie. I've lost a best friend though. Some days can be hard but you have to live how he would've wanted you too. Be something for him to be proud of. I can't imagine what it would be like to lose a child, just keep you're head up, remember the good, remember him smiling. Don't neglect the other 2, don't neglect the wife. It's obvious you've got some strength. Just use it man. Never forget, but don't let it drag you under either, he wouldn't have wanted that. Take it easy man.

Sorry for your loss You and Your family r in My Prayers

I don't know what it's like to lose a child. So to say I feel you would be a lie. I've lost a best friend though. Some days can be hard but you have to live how he would've wanted you too. Be something for him to be proud of. I can't imagine what it would be like to lose a child, just keep you're head up, remember the good, remember him smiling. Don't neglect the other 2, don't neglect the wife. It's obvious you've got some strength. Just use it man. Never forget, but don't let it drag you under either, he wouldn't have wanted that. Take it easy man. THANKS !

Well i have a court date comeing up and its a complience hearing for my exwife, see instead of going to jail for six months for not haveing insurance and paying child suport they gave her a six month defered probation, and if she is not doing what she is court orderd to then they can send her to jail! kind of a second chance (fucked up) deal. if it was a man his ass would be paying double and would be working it off in jail! you know . any how she just started doing what the court ordered. i just got insurance cards like two days ago and i already got insurance so she can just pay me for it! any how basicly she has not been doing what she should and just like befor she will start about two weeks befor court and the judge will say ok sweety, its not right she has been slacking off for like 5 months and now she will just put on show for the court and as soon as it is over she will quit her job, stop paying , and the insurance she got will be cancled. so how do you get all that threw the head of some old ass fuck up judge, who realy just wants to go to his 2 hour lunch with all the lawyers we are paying big money to and laugh about what is going on and chat about what fucking golf course they are going to play when they take off early on fridays? just to add to the shit , my ex has not even seen her son in like five or six month now! she cals every now and a gain but she lives in new york and well fuck her i wish it would all just stop. i am finaly getting to a place in my life wher i have some money and time to injoy things (family, vacation, ex), but i still have to deal with this . and i have two other court dates in december! i realy wish i was running this country couse we as a people ( like in the real consatution) would be changeing alot of laws. i will not get started on all that i would be hear all day but hey you all start a potition if you like to see about getting me elected next term! lol. injoy im out :poo:

Sorry to read about all the shit you and your family is going through bro. Good luck with everything, God only tests us with as much as he thinks we can handle, and come out stronger for it. Good luck.

Will Be Updateing Soon, Still Going To Court, Ex Wife Is Still Not Doing Right And The Court Still Dont Give Ashit! What Do I Have To Do To Get Some Justis?

Will Be Updateing Soon, Still Going To Court, Ex Wife Is Still Not Doing Right And The Court Still Dont Give Ashit! What Do I Have To Do To Get Some Justis? I wish you the best !

I wish you all the best and I can tell you I was in the same place. My younger brother was diagnosed with non-hodgekins lymphoblastic lymphoma. He was 11. It was in full remission by age 14. by age 16 it was back with a vengence as full blown lukemia. He survived and kept in as good of spirits as you could expect. I love my brother. He is the strongest person I know. I hope things can be resolved quickly. Again, I wish you all the best and I hope you keep in good spirits. May your son find his way to heaven.

My heart goes out to you Bro...as a father myself, I can't imagine your loss. Sincere best wishes to you, holding your son in my heart.

My prayers go out to you and your family and the new addition to the family Congrats man!!!! But most of all like others have said God only puts you through these trials and tribulations cause he knows you can handle it. Plus he is always by your side guiding you along even when you dont feel he is there he is...I dont know about losing a loved one, and i dont know when that day will come but when it does i know that God will be there to make things ok and make me strong to get through it....But my prayers are with you and your family.....oh and hope the ex gets what she deserves for all the hard ship....

WELL THANK YOU EVERYONE FOR THE SUPORT AND I THINK IT ALL OVER FOR NOW! MY X CALLED MONDAY AND SAID SHE WILL GIVE UP HERWRIGHTS TO MY SON AND THAT SHE WOULD NOT BE IN COURT THE NEXT DAY AND WELL SHE WASNT SO I GOT FULL CUSTODY AND SHE GOT SUPERVIZED VISITATION AT THE WOMAN CENTER AND SHE HAS TO GIVE ME 30 DAYS WRITEN NOTICE WHEN SHE WANTS TO SEE HIM, SHE GETS NO PHONE CONTACT. AND MY LAWYER STUCK HER WITH ANOTHER 1500 DOLLARS TO PAY MY LAWYERS FEES. AS WELL AS THE CHILD SUPORT GOT RAISED TO 264 AMONTH. NOW SHE IS NOT PAYING ME ANY WAY BUT IT WILL AD UP AND I MIGHT SEE IT SOME DAY BUT ALL THIS WILL MAKE IT HARDER FOR HER TO GET ANYTHING LATER IF SHE TAKES ME BACK TO COURT. ANY WAY I DID ASK MY LAWYER TO DRAW UP PAPER FOR HER TO SIGNE HER RIGHTS AWAY, NO VISITS. BECAUSE THE JUDGE DIDNT WANT TO TERMINATE. BUT IF SHE IS WILLING I WILL TAKE THEM! NOW I AM NOT HAT BAD A GUY IF SHE CAN GET IT TOGETHER I WILL LET HER SEE IM BUT SHE HAS TO GET HER LIFE STRAIT. ANY WAY THAT IS THAT AND I AM HAPPY. LOVE YOU ALL AND I HOPE LIFE TREATS YOU ALL WELL. BEST WISHES . BUY THE WAY I TALKED TO MOMA AND SHE IS LETTING ME GET A BUSA! SO I WILL BE LOOKING SOON HAVE FUN EVERYONE:arsenal :clap: :bounce :thumbup: :rock:

I wish you all the best and I can tell you I was in the same place. My younger brother was diagnosed with non-hodgekins lymphoblastic lymphoma. He was 11. It was in full remission by age 14. by age 16 it was back with a vengence as full blown lukemia. He survived and kept in as good of spirits as you could expect. I love my brother. He is the strongest person I know. I hope things can be resolved quickly. Again, I wish you all the best and I hope you keep in good spirits. May your son find his way to heaven. THANKS AND NICE SRAD! I HAD A 600 LOVED IT

Well I Closed On My Busa Yesterday 06 Gsx1300r Payed For, Now I Have To Take Time Off Of This Turbine Shut Down To Go Pic It Up. Got It Cheap, 8999. 9950 Drive Out! I Think That Was Cheep, Any Way Its The Blue And Silver 06 Brand New! 0 Miles, I Know Its Diff From The The Other Gixxers But Its Ok, I Am Looking More For Some Thing To Cruse On And Not So Much The Twisty Sport Bikes. Any Way Let Me Know If Any Of You Have A Busa And If You Like It. How It Handles And Such. Thanks

I do not know what it is like to lose a son or daughter and can only say that your family is in our prayers. I did lose my sister when she was 39 and believe me it was not easy to (get over) and to this day I have days where I get sad thinking how much I miss her. It does get easier to handle day by day but I took her son when she died at her request and I know how bad it is to try to be strong for the other people around you. Hang in there and try to dwell on the good times and smiles and the bad will fade as the weeks and months tick by.

i wish i could be their for u... very sorry for your loss

This was in fuckin 05:infrandom bottom feeders I tell ya:headshake